January 7, 2018
The new season of my life. The administrator of my Dad care and helping my Mom deal with the transfer of her beloved husband of almost 70 years to a nursing home the day after my birthday. What a ball of emotions, I am crying as I write this post, but this is the only time I can be a daughter and grieve. In conversations, with medical staff, I must be together. We discuss changes in medication, around the clock nursing care, a DNR orders, my heart is in my stomach. I remain stone-faced so my Mom has a shoulder to lean on, only when I am at home, I sob like a child at the thought of loosing my Dad. Today we are bringing my birthday celebration dinner to the hospital, I will have my birthday with my Dad for the last time.
December 28, 2017
I am so blown away by fall’s orchestra of colors, every turn on my path through the woods has me gasping for breath. Reds mixed with orangey peach color, shades of green sprinkled in, I marvel at its beauty and wonder how this is created just for me. It seems it has been placed on my path for my enjoyment alone. It helps me ease my worries and sort out complicated work problems without thinking about it, wandering in the woods just being me, stopping to observe small nests, twigs, the view over fields, watching deer jump the fences on the border of my property.
Without focusing on how; my aimless walks sort out more than I realized, in the quiet, my mind slows and I find myself smiling. Just being grateful for the view. I know we are following a more enlightened path, observing, loving being grateful, so being part of MKMMA we become nature’s greatest miracle.
December 28, 2017
I am rare, and there is a value in all rarity; therefore, I am valuable.
When is the last time you thought of yourself as valuable, a rare find? Looking for others to make you feel valuable, I keep waiting. I know I see myself as valuable because I give it to others first, love, acceptance, I stay in the flow and I become valuable to everyone I meet. I am extraordinary because in today’s world this behavior unique. We at MKMMA are rare finds indeed, more valuable than all the riches of the world.
December 17, 2017
Og, I forget the happenings of the day that is gone, whether they were good or bad, and greet the new sun with confidence that this be the best day of my life.
The future me, healthy, happy, feeling terrific, organized and making a difference in the lived of others.
These changes require hard work, pain, and unwavering determination. I am reminded of the movie “Wild.” Taking on a huge challenge without any experience, training or guidance. Relying on the kindness of strangers and your own smarts to outwit the human predators. I see similarities in navigating my own life, albeit much less dangerous.
I believe my God has a hand in my life, using the bad and painful to achieve good for all who are watching the transformation and changing me from the inside out by leading me through the master key experience
December 17, 2017
My Dmp didn’t feel right. It wasn’ honestly me. It bothered me, I felt it was my life that I was living for someone else’s life. So I switched ppn’s and I feel good about the revisions, my guide Ken must be scratching his head and wondering, but I am becoming a self-directed thinker and I think I will change things up and go with how I feel.
I am looking at the flurry of Christmas activity both at work and in my home, and wonder how to squish it all into the time left. The clock is ticking, but I don’t look at the clock and look at my compass so I choose to have work left on my desk while I make sure a substantial cheque that was lost in the mail, is in the hands of a 68-year-old client for Christmas. I take the time to observe, the homeless man collecting change at the intersection, volunteering for the children’s charity, and decided these are my priorities. I remember og , Yet from childish swipes, the oak eventually tumble. So it be with my efforts of today. All will be done that comes from my heart and the reason for the season is not lost on me. I will hold this special feeling this season in my heart all year. Merry Christmas my MKE peeps.